Thanks to my college for keeping my semester exams before diwali!! This diwali was a silent enjoyment for me amidst all those bursting sounds. Do i sound cotradictory here?
It so happens to me that, during every diwali so far celebrated, i have had some work or the other, related to my college or school. This results in my mind always being preoccupied with the loads of pending work that i would have. But this ofcourse doesn't mean that i am studious or a workholic. It is just that i am forced to be that way. However, this time, things were different. I had the full mental liberty to lie down on my "Spongy" sofa, relax and watch all the tv shows that were screened. There was no one to question me. To be more precise in my mother's language "I was killing time", which has been my master plan for long.
Imagine, how would it be for a busy business man to go on a 2 day holiday trip to singapore or switzerland??Ofcourse, i may not be as busy as that business man, but definetely i would love to spend time for myself in between my own busy schedule. In today's fastfood world we often don't get opportunities to spend time for ourselves. Even if we do so, some of us tend to act as if we are busy. Why is this so? Is it because we are used to being busy??or, is it because we don't want people find out that we ocassionally become jobless and that they don't? or, is it because we want to be our true selves?? Well, confusing questions. Aren't they?Atleast they have confused me a lot of times.
Sometimes when my close friends ask me to come somewhere, i would prefer telling them that i am busy and deny their offer. Ultimately, i would go home and do nothing except, sitting in front of the tv, or listening to music ,or taking a nap. So what was my intention when i said "i am busy"? Here comes the analysis of the three questions mentioned above. From the series of evaluation that i have done on myself, i think i belong to the third category who wants to spend time for herself, not compromisong it for anything on her way!
According to my philosophy, "killing time" is not wrong. After all, life is not all about work. Its more about work and fun.
On a day of absolute "joblessness", i get up as late as possible until my ear drums are activated to my mom's scoldings! Then i would sloppily walk towards the bath room deeply comtemplating, if i am walking in the right direction, or should i take a "u-turn" and drive towards my bed again. After tumbling a bit , i decide to be a good girl(not to strain my mom's vocal cords further) and do the holy job of brushing my teeth. My next important appointment is to sit with a cup of hot coffee on one hand and the newpaper on the other. Nothing in this world can equate this happiness for me. Then, my vicious cycle continues around doing things like "eat-sleep-meddle with computer-listen to music-watch tv" and it goes on. So what is the productive result at the end of the day? The answer might me nil. But, to me, it ain't! It only regenarates me to do my work more effectively when i really need to do it! These days of "joblessness" are, according to me, golden opportunities.
I am happy this diwali has been one such day for me!!indeed a memorable one, though there isn't anything to remember!!:)
It so happens to me that, during every diwali so far celebrated, i have had some work or the other, related to my college or school. This results in my mind always being preoccupied with the loads of pending work that i would have. But this ofcourse doesn't mean that i am studious or a workholic. It is just that i am forced to be that way. However, this time, things were different. I had the full mental liberty to lie down on my "Spongy" sofa, relax and watch all the tv shows that were screened. There was no one to question me. To be more precise in my mother's language "I was killing time", which has been my master plan for long.
Imagine, how would it be for a busy business man to go on a 2 day holiday trip to singapore or switzerland??Ofcourse, i may not be as busy as that business man, but definetely i would love to spend time for myself in between my own busy schedule. In today's fastfood world we often don't get opportunities to spend time for ourselves. Even if we do so, some of us tend to act as if we are busy. Why is this so? Is it because we are used to being busy??or, is it because we don't want people find out that we ocassionally become jobless and that they don't? or, is it because we want to be our true selves?? Well, confusing questions. Aren't they?Atleast they have confused me a lot of times.
Sometimes when my close friends ask me to come somewhere, i would prefer telling them that i am busy and deny their offer. Ultimately, i would go home and do nothing except, sitting in front of the tv, or listening to music ,or taking a nap. So what was my intention when i said "i am busy"? Here comes the analysis of the three questions mentioned above. From the series of evaluation that i have done on myself, i think i belong to the third category who wants to spend time for herself, not compromisong it for anything on her way!
According to my philosophy, "killing time" is not wrong. After all, life is not all about work. Its more about work and fun.
On a day of absolute "joblessness", i get up as late as possible until my ear drums are activated to my mom's scoldings! Then i would sloppily walk towards the bath room deeply comtemplating, if i am walking in the right direction, or should i take a "u-turn" and drive towards my bed again. After tumbling a bit , i decide to be a good girl(not to strain my mom's vocal cords further) and do the holy job of brushing my teeth. My next important appointment is to sit with a cup of hot coffee on one hand and the newpaper on the other. Nothing in this world can equate this happiness for me. Then, my vicious cycle continues around doing things like "eat-sleep-meddle with computer-listen to music-watch tv" and it goes on. So what is the productive result at the end of the day? The answer might me nil. But, to me, it ain't! It only regenarates me to do my work more effectively when i really need to do it! These days of "joblessness" are, according to me, golden opportunities.
I am happy this diwali has been one such day for me!!indeed a memorable one, though there isn't anything to remember!!:)
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very true madhu!!